Irrational Logic

It's been almost a year since I updated. Nothing new is really going on. Just still going to school and getting pretty pissed that I have to do this bullshit again. Seriously, what dumb ass university decides to start a Master's program specifically for working professionals, only to tell said alumni working professional that in order to apply for the program, they need 18 additional credit hours on top of their Bachelor's. What the hell was the point? To rape me for my money, that's why. Damn piece of crap school. Hate that university because, oh, even though the program is set up for working professionals, the classes required to be admitted into the program are only offered during he day, meaning I have to work part time to get the classes I want. And I'm paying for it myself, so to say I'm broke is giving me way too much credit. I'm impoverished.

Anyway, that's about all that's going on. Writing up a new fan fic for Suikoden. Other than that, nothing much. How's everyone on my friends list?

Hola my friend list. God, it's been sooooooooo long since I updated, and I can't be sure I'll update anytime soon either. Just to catch everyone up, well, still renting space from my sister while going to college. Good thing is, I got straight A's on my report card this semester. Yeah me!

Uh...working at the bank, not sure how that's going. I've worked for a company that had a 25% turn over ratio, worked for a company where six months after our opening, four of our managers were gone, and I worked through a branch closing...and I can honestly say, I've never been in this situation before. Nine months after I started, and there have been 10 people who've left, either transferring to another branch or quitting. That really speaks volumes for our lack of stability I tell ya. So, after nine months, I'm the person who's been at that branch the longest, and know our customers. The new girl they brough in to replace the girl the moved to another branch started today. I just don't know...

Anyway, really, that's about all that's been going on. I really wanted to stop by and wish my collective friends list a very Merry Christmas. *hugs friend list*

Current Mood: Eh...

Hi LJ Friendlist. Just wanting to let everyone know. It's been MONTHS since I've posted, and truthfully, I probably won't be posting much here except very sporatically. But, I have gotten my Instant Messenger running again, LordJonathanP, so look me up there.

Life's been crazy, between work and school, I barely have time to breath. I do hope everyone is doing well. Drop me an email or look me up on IM. That especially goes for you Berry and Ren, we need to get the writer's guild back up and running.

Looking forward to getting back in touch with everyone.

Okay, well first things first, finally, finally, FINALLY got the internet to work on my computer so now *knock on wood* I'm back...heh.

Lets see. Jobs going fairly well. Working at First Financial Bank as a teller part time while in college. Not a bad gig, but damn it if all the people I work with aren't like 10 years younger than me. Seriously, I'm not really complaining but its odd that the only time anyone talks to me there is to tell me when I did something wrong. Oh well...its a job and it pays the bills I need, its not like I was hoping to make friends anyway.

Schools going fairly well too. Truthfully I'm enjoying my Shakespeare class more than my poetry writing class. Guess its the discussion aspect of the class I enjoy in Shakespeare, that and the fact that last time I had to read it was when I was still in high school, so now I don't mind saying I'm a bit smarter and can actually understand it more.

Hmm...nothing else really to talk about. Hope everyone is doing well and I appologize I can't read up to see what everyone's been up to lately. Drop me a line though and I'll reply quickly. :o)

Talk to you all again soon.

Gwah...things are hectic here. Well, the move went well, but I don't really have internet and my computer has been down since I moved. My classes are going well. I'm really enjoying Shakespear, though oddly, the poetry writing class is only sort of blah...

Haven't got a job yet, but still looking. But I wanted to appologize to everyone that I haven't been around in a while. So sorry. Hope everyone is doing well.

( my xmas stocking )

Okay people...fill my stocking. I've been...kind of good this year. :o)

Current Mood: Getting ready for work

I don't know. I get the feeling something is rong with me. Not rreally emotionally, but I'm just ont feeling very good about things. You know, I had some wine for Thanksgiving, and I was thingking...this is good sthit. So I bought me a bottle of it. And yeah, I drank it...the WHOLE FUKING BOTTLE TONIGHT. I don't know why I did it, i'm sick to death of my job, and part of me is afriad of going back to school because what if it doesn't work out?

Oh yeah, I'm quitting my piece of shit job and going to back to scholl and uh...oh, I'm moving in with my sister, taking her spare bedroom and uh lets see...I forget...anyway, I decided to go back to school.

The point of htis whole post is that I bought a bottle of wine and drank it..the whole fucking thing. And then watched Clerks II. OMG. That was so freaking nuts, and I wonder if it would have been as funny if I was n't so liquidated.

I'm tired. I'm going to bed......................

Current Mood: Three sheets to the wind baby

Just wanted to wish everyone a great Thanksgiving.

Current Mood: Give me Turkey

Hmm...well lets see, an update. Well, the job is getting worse. Seems somewhere along the lines my department has become something of a revolving door. In the last two months, we've lost 5 people out of the 12 that are on my team alone, and that's only one of six teams. You'd think that a reasonable leadership strategy would be to nurture your employees so they don't attempt to exodus like a bat out of hell, but guess what, that's not the case.

Well, to remedy this little situation I'm presently looking into going back to college. I have a degree, but its all but useless, so I figure I want to/need a master's to accomplish anything. So, I should, hopefully, hear something either tomorrow or Wednesday from the university about being accepted. If that's the case, then I will sign up for classes, quit my fugging job and actually move in with my sister while going to school full time and getting a part time job. Feel like a bit of a free loader doing that, but you know...if I always worry about my pride then I'll never get out of this rut I'm in. Hopefully things will work out the way I want, *crosses fingers*

AND...we are having a food day on Wednesday for one our soon departed employees leaving to go to another company. Food days are always fun because you never have to buy lunch. Anyway, I got an email from a friend of mine on my team regarding the food day. Two and a half pages of nothing but "Gibbs Cookies" Incidentally Gibbs is my last name for those who don't know. Well, the cookie itself is something I came up with on my own and has basically been the rage of the office. I've made 50 one day and they were gone by 3 o'clock. That's how popular these things are. So, looks like I'll be making my cookies. Oh, and for the record, the cookies are actually called Fusion Cookies, or more accurately, What the Fusion...i.e. WTF Cookies. heh.

For those interesting in the Fusion cookie, the recipe is here:

http://community.livejournal.com/tasty_stuff/3861.html

Other than that...let's see. My new video game comes in tomorrow. WWE Wrestling 2007. Truthfully, I'm not a fan of wrestling...used to be but not anymore. But the thing I like about it is that its just good fun to create a wrestler, have him pick up a steel chair and mercilessly beat another pixel character into unconsciousness. Ahh....stress free living, what would I do without you?

Hopefully everyone is doing well and hope to talk to you soon.

Just for fun:

Dear Santa... Dear Santa, This year I've been busy! In July I committed genocide... Sorry about that, cal_renfro (-5000 points). In October I pulled over and changed gunsmithprince's flat tire (15 points). Last Tuesday I gave berrygold a Dutch Oven (-10 points). In September ladyassassin and I robbed a bank (-50 points). Last Sunday I helped karthur see the light (8 points). Overall, I've been naughty (-5037 points). For Christmas I deserve a spanking! Sincerely, jonathan_priest

Current Mood: Eh...whatever...
Current Music: Time Scar from Chrono Cross

Geez, my job is driving me nuts. Okay, not sure how many know or care but I'm going to rant on this anyway. I work for an insurance company in the rating department in which I write up and price policies for the insured. That's what I do. Freaking boring as hell and mindless drone work on top of that. Why they ever required a college degree for this job is beyond me. *shakes head*

Anyway, back to the story. Last week I got a policy for a Garage Dealers coverage. This is an extrememly complicated policy that's all manual, we can't even use our system to rate it up. The kicker is...I've never processed or even seen one in my life, so I get as far as I can and have to ask for help. Not sure how many of you remember but back in April I was written up for "asking too many questions" Not even sure what the hell that means but anyway, I stopped all that and just worked in my little world, saying nothing to nobody. Except last week when I needed help.

Lo and behold, the very next day, my supervisor sends me an email at how disappointed she is in me that I didn't bother to research and didn't bother to work on this policy myself. Three words come to mind...W-T-F. First, I've not only never worked one of these policies, I've never SEEN ONE. How the hell am I supposed to work on it myself if I don't know how to do it? Second, the one person I asked about the policy before I even asked for help has done only ONE of these policies in the 8 years she's been there so that tells you how rare they are.

Well, that's over with and I get the damn thing done, but I'm pissed. So I'm back to talking to no one, avoiding my supervisor and all that. Here's where it really gets sticky. My supervisor sends me a second email saying she understands I'm upset at her and that's my choice but she expects the same level of work from everyone and I'm no exception. Again, point 1) Had she taken the time to come over to my desk or emailed me and ask me what the problem was or whatever rather than jumping to the conclusion that I just suck as an employee then I wouldn't feel like I have to walk on eggshells all the time anymore and wouldn't be "upset" with the situation. 2) This isn't some run of the mill easy policy I've worked a thousand times this is something I've never seen and yet because I have one bad day where I need to ask for help I'm suddenly back to that shitty employee she thought I was 8 months ago. Yeah, that's why I'm upset.

On that note, I need everyone's advice about something. My parents, oddly enough just as all this is coming down on my head, have offered me the chance to move back in with them, in which I would take that opportunity to go back to school full time and get a masters in a field I can freaking use. Journalism suck as a degree, let me tell you. So, the upside, I would be able to go back to school, move closer to my family and friends, and quit this job that is causing my blood pressure to spike. The down side is that I'd be giving up my freedom and feel like I failed trying to get out here on my own. So, and advice for me?

Some other interesting tidbits. I went to my cousin's wedding last Saturday. It was a nice ceremony and we stayed until almost 2 o'clock all because my sister had to be stubborn and not want to leave. I swear, that girl never goes out in public, but she latches to family functions like a life preserver. My mom wasn't fond of my sister walking to her car at 2 am. After all, the reception was in Covington which is known for being a rough area. But forget that, my sister has this naive "I'm invincible" mindset about herself, it drives me nuts. For crying out loud, she's 31 and thinks nothing will happen to her. *headdesk*

AND, I also found out last weekend that my uncle is getting married the week before Thanksgiving. Hmm...well, maybe third time would be the charm, if he'd learn to stop cheating on his wives. The guy is my uncle and all that, but seriously, he has a self control issue. Here's the kicker. I'm 32, my uncle's daughter (my cousin) is 36. My dad is 54 so I want to say my uncle is maybe 57? His soon-to-be wife, is 38 freaking years old. Does that seem wrong to anybody else? Oh well, who am I to throw stones? Considering none of us were even invited to his last wedding and didn't even know he got married until 4 months after the fact I guess its nice to even know about it this time.


In other news, this is why this country is great. Here that? That's me rolling my eyes.
http://news.enquirer.com/apps/pbcs.dll/article?AID=/20061026/NEWS0102/610260366

Current Mood: tired

Been a while since I've updated. Figured I'd give everyone a head up on what's going on in my life. The Reader's Digest Condensed version is that nothing has changed. Yep, still working the status quo that I do.

Still working that piece of crap job I work and still hating it. I swear the micro-management bullshit we put up with is getting worse and it makes coming into work a total march of death. Example of how bad this company is...there are probably 100 people in our department, and of those 100 people, we have had one promotion this year. Just one. Total bullshit is that? Chances are I won't get a raise this year either because of my lousy review in July. Not that I'm a bad employee, I work my ass off for that place, but they just keep changing the requirements of making the promotion and what constitutes a "good job" to the point no one makes it.

Good example of how bad the job is. Of our last group of new-hires, they hired in 32 people in July. of those 32, only 10 are left. Most of them quit, some were fired. They just hired in another 30 people, which makes me want to laugh as the last group isn't even fully trained yet. *headdesk* stupid company.

One thing that does rather bother me a bit however. I talked to my sister last night. Apparently my mother is a bit upset that I don't spend more time over there visiting. I'm sorry, but I live an hour away from them and I visit about once a month. And everytime I'm over my folks insist I spend the night. I'm 32, does that seem wierd to anyone else? Don't get me wrong, I love my parents to death and would do horrible things to protect them, but I mean...come on, I visit maybe once a month, which is more than a lot of people visit their parents. *sigh* I don't know what to do other than quit my job and move back in with them. Maybe that'll make them happy.
*EDIT* Just talked to my mom, apparently my sister took everything out of context. *shrug* Not surprising I guess if that's the way it happened. My mom did say she would like to see me more than once a month...again, I live an hour away so that really doesn't work too well.

Well, went to the Renassaince Festival this weekend with my brothers. Dropped about $200 this weekend, but it was a good time. Was looking for a sword but didn't find one. They only had crap or swords that cost about $600. I did see a rather interesting reverse katana, the type used by Kenshin from Samurai X but use of the weapon would be a bit difficult to handle. There was also the gun blade used by Squall from Final Fantasy VIII, but really, that was always a stupid weapon. I don't know, what's the facination with making weapons off of video games or books. Though I can't argue that really, I do have a replica of Bilbo Baggins sword Sting hanging on my wall. heh.

While at the Ren Fest, I watched three very entertaining shows as well, though it would make little sense to try to explain it to you. Especially the Mud Show. But good times. :o)

Oh, here are some videos for randomness sake:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7PX7bVcPw94
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JnUvw1rzziE
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZY3dniKsJPk&mode=related&search=
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qlxOc3iR5pA
http://www.ultimateshowdown.org/

All these videos are pretty funny.

And one last thing. Gawked from KArthur:

Give me at least 1 reason why I'm going to hell. Then, repost this meme in your own LJ and see what other people say about you.

Well, hope everyone is doing well and talk to you all later.

Current Mood: Eh?

No denying, I hate my job. It's getting worse and I can't freaking stand it any more. I have got to get out of that place. In fact, its a sad commentary to admit that I was really really REALLY sick Wednesday, went into work Thursday and was sent home five minutes after I walked in the door. It's a sad commentary that I would rather be home sick as a dog than to be at work. Place is dragging me down.

Served on jury duty last Thursday. Question, would it be considered contempt of court to ask the judge for her phone number because she was really cute. So was the clerk in fact. But fortunately I didn't have to serve. It's amazing that telling them you're bipolar and forgot to take your medication will get you off jury duty. heh heh.

In other news, I'm beginning to seriously think I'm being cloned. Really. No seriously. Last week a co-worker asked me if I had a brother who was an architect because she was watching the news and they interviewed an architect that looked just like me...even sounded like me. (For the record, my brother isn't an architect) This isn't a big deal really, but it is when considering that as of right now, I have been seen in five different states, people who've talked to someone they said was me. Looked identical to me, acted like me, sounded like me...everything. The really fun thing happened when I went to the doctors for my knee last year. I had to keep giving them my date of birth because apparently they were treating another patient with my name, and the same knee injury. Not only do they take my face and personality, but now they're taking my ailments? So yeah, I'm spacing out now thinking that there are as of right now, six known copies of me wandering around with my face, personality and everything else. Guess God thought one of me wasn't enough of a good thing. hee hee. Either that or he expected just one of me wasn't enough to punish humankind. >:p

And in other news, looks like the animal kingdom is getting violent again.

http://news.bbc.co.uk/2/hi/europe/4489792.stm

http://www.dennyweb.com/viking_kittens.htm

Current Mood: One of those moods

Well, I survived a crazy weekend at the anime fest in Baltimore. What a blast it was too, and I am greatly relieved to find I am not as big of a geek as I feared. Sure, dressing up is one thing, but when you got people wearing full costumes like Brian from Family Guy, complete with the enormous head, then some people go too far.

But lets see, my favorite costumes were:

5) Captain Jack Sparrow: The guy who dressed up like him even had the manorisms down pat. Rather entertaining, even if I was sorely tempted to toss him over the banister to get him to shut the hell up.

4) Lucia: Suikoden 3 version. I'm such a Suikoden whore

3) Viki: Suikoden 3 version. I'm still a Suikoden whore.

2) Usagi Yojimbo: The rabbit samurai from a little known manga who has made several appearances in the Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles show. Was really a cool costume.

1) Tir McDohl: Oh...hell...yeah. Again, I'm a Suikoden whore, and Tir is my favorite RPG hero period. And it was so great seeing someone who actually knew and decided to dress up like him. So cool.

Honorable mentions: Some chick dressed up like David Bowie's character from Labyrenth. And there were so many FF7 characters you couldn't move without seeing a Cloud or Sepheroth, even a couple of Vincents but they were cool costumes. I even saw someone dressed in full Stormtrooper gear. WTF? Stormtroopers have nothing to freaking do with anime. Yeah, I'm showing my geekdom now.

But the coolest part was finally meeting up with my wonderful friends Cal Renfro and Goldberry. It was cool meeting them in person finally.

In other news, I'm off work until Thursday...HA HA HA HA HA. And I start Jury Duty next week. I also have a doctor's appointment tomorrow in which I will tell the doctor to stop dicking around and just schedule the fricken surgery because this is getting tirersome.

Oh, and just curious, has anyone seen the movie The Highwayman? I was watching it but had to turn it off with like 15 minutes to go. How does it end?

Well, I'm back, and I'll talk to you all soon. :o)

Oh, and for your entertainment, check this:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lL7QnCAmcWQ&mode=related&search=

Who says anime and RPGs never give us anything. :o) Truthfully, this thing is a piece of crap, mostly sheet metal and fiberglass, but who knows, in a few years it could work...along with the flying cars and personalized jet packs...heh.

Current Location: In front of my computer
Current Mood: Jet lag
Current Music: The low hum of my A.C.

Gwah. I'm having a hell of a time. Okay, on my way back to my apartment this evening, I get pulled over by a cop.

"The reason I pulled you over is because I lasered you doing 50 in a 35"
"BULLSHIT" at least that's what I would have said had my ass not winded up in jail. It's amazing to think that Freedom of Speech only goes so far.

Anyway, I got a speeding ticket. $333.03. I mean WTF. Point one, I have NEVER had a speeding ticket, moving violation or any other citation when driving. Point two, I haven't had an accident in over 12 years, so its pretty safe to assume I'm a safe driver. He couldn't give me a warning? And they wonder why people hate cops. So I'm going to end up paying this god damn thing because court cost on top of losing a case anyway and missing a day of work, it just isn't worth it.

Current Mood: Come Get Some

Okay, well, went to the doctors today. This is a different one however. Previously the doctor I went to gave me anti-flamitories, anti-flamitories with exercises, the electrode test to find out what was going on and finally a shot in the elbow to try to resolve some of the pain in my wrist...none of which worked.

So, my doctor refers me to yet another doctor to schedule surgery. Well, when this new doctor reviewed my electrode test results, he came in and told me...guess what, this isn't Carpal Tunnel. The problem is that all the pain is coming from your elbow...or at least that's what I highly suspect.

So I'm thinking, great...it's not my wrist, its my elbow that has been causing me pain all the way down my arm. WTF? All this time they've been treating me for Carpal Tunnel? And now the doctor wants to perscribe me even more medicine and reschedule another appointment with yet another doctor in two weeks. That's been four doctors who've dealt with this problem since April. Tell you all what, I'm getting pretty God Damn Sick and Tired of the Bullshit.

All I know is, this damn thing hurts like a mofo. I'm about half a step away from saying "screw it all" reinitiate my job search and full speed and fuck the pain in my hand until my arm falls off because no one seems to know what the hell is going on.

In other news...I'm pregnant.

Current Mood: Do I look stupid?
Current Music: "Breath" by Anna Nalik

Wow, is it just me or does life seem to hit all at once? Case in point, my life...heh. July is always hectic for me, my mom's birthday is the 3rd, my sister's in the 13th and my dad's is the 19th. Lots going on. Now, I have a vacation planned (YES) for the week of Aug. 3-9, where I'm going to Baltimore for the 4-6 for an anime convention...hee hee hee. In addition, if I can swing it, I will be having surgery for my Carpal Tunnel on the 7th when I return, so I can use a couple of my vacation days to help compensate my pathetic lack of pay for the first week.

Now here's the kicker...I received a notice in on Friday advising me to appear to the muncipal court build between the days of Aug 14-25 as a prospective juror. heh. So, August will be Hell on Wheels as well. I could just see myself, sitting in the jury box doped up on pain pills. So yeah, my August is already planned as well.

Well, as they say, if I didn't eat stress for breakfast I'd starve. :op

Current Mood: Uh...wha?

Well, some more news. Seems my Carpal Tunnel is going to require surgery. I'm going to be off work for 6 weeks with this. Not too bad considering I get short term disability and I hate my job. What really sucks is, I had a job interview lined up tomorrow with another company that I had to cancel because they wanted someone to start right away. Six weeks is not right away. Also, I came back to my apartment today with another request to set up an interview with another company. God Damn it...why'd this have to happen now? I was starting to get some bites on the job front.

Anyway, off to bed. Hope everyone is doing well.

Current Mood: apathetic

Blarg...well, went to the doctor today. Left work two hours early, sat in the waiting room for 3 hours to find out that the results of my EMG (found out that's what its really freaking called) came back positive and yep...I'm pregnant...er...no wait...no, uh I have Carpal Tunnel. Big surprise. So, they showed me some stretching exercises, and perscribed some more and different anti flammitories and if this doesn't work then I'm going under the knife. Must be pretty bad, cause they only gave me two weeks to test if this is working. LOL. Well, if it doesn't work, at least I'll have a reason for missing work for at least a month.

In other news, nothing going on. Working on my epilogue for the Suikoden Fan fic epic tower of babble mess that's already 11 pages and only about half way through it. *whew* This is a chore.

Anyway, ganked from Emagnus

Respond to this and...

1. I'll respond with something random about you. (I misread this, too late to change, oops! XD)
2. I'll challenge you to try something.
3. I'll pick a color that I associate with you.
4. I'll tell you something I like about you.
5. I'll tell you my first/clearest memory of you.
6. I'll tell you what animal you remind me of.
7. I'll ask you something I've always wanted to ask you.
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Current Mood: Let the Good times roll

Yeah, this is the last freaking straw. For months I've done nothing but bitch about my job. Well, the corner just turned for me. On Friday, I got my pay increase. Per my supervisor, due to my marginal performance review, I get a pay increase of 0%. That's right, a big freaking nothing. I've busted my ass for a year and get no raise? And if they had a problem with my work, why not tell me my weak points and give me a chance to get better rather than this horse shit. But its not even really a problem, its "average" as it were. Any raise would have been nice, because for a college grad making the shit pay I'm making, this is a fucking joke. Well, I've had it. I'm sending resumes by the freaking truck load out to get out of this damn piece of shit company. Talk about feeling really fucking unappreciated.

Good news is that Red vs Blue season 4 came out. Funny ass shit. Great stuff, but you know, I'm still pissed.

Current Mood: pissed off

Well, went to the doctor yesterday about my hand. Its definately Carpal Tunnel and a pretty bad case from the sound. So I get to go take an MRI or and EKG or whatever the hell it is where they strap electrodes to my fingers and test the nerve response. The results of the test pretty much determine how quick I'm going in for surgery I suppose.

On that note, my mom also called me last night. She works as a aid in a handicapped room at a school so she asked the physical therepist some advise about Carpal Tunnel and my mom passed it on. Her advise, take it easy and do nothing repetitious for about a month and it might clear up. *headdesk* Hello! My freaking job is sitting in front of a computer typing for 8 hours, how the hell am I suppose to do that? My mother, I love her to death but she doesn't get it. She was trying to explain how I could simply type with one hand and just slow my pace. Yeah...my company in their benevolent, iron-fisted ways would boot me out the door the moment I tried that. So, guess it'll be surgery if things don't go well with the test. Oh well, I could use a break from work and this might help motivate me to find a new job.

In other news, I'm really thinking lately that I need to take stock of my life. I've realized recently that since I've moved up to my new place 18 months ago, I've felt distant and disconnected from my life as a whole. I mean, my family and friends are all down in Northern Kentucky, and I'm an hour drive from them. Not a long drive mind you, but considering I'm always the one expected to go down there when someone wants to hang out...it can get old. Especially since I don't like driving. But that has more to do with my ingrained ideology that I am to die in a car crash. *shrug* I've no idea where that came from, it's just there.

Yeah, well hopefully I'll finish my Suikoden story soon. I need to get with my writing partner and collaborate on the time line for our novel. 1600 years is a lot of history to flesh out. But, as it should be noted, this story is E-P-I-C.

Well, that's it from my corner of the world. Hope everyone is doing well.

Current Mood: bored